Dear Daughter

To my daughter,

My baby girl tomorrow is your wedding day, congratulations. I am so proud of you, my baby girl. I remember the day that you were born. Your daddy was so proud, so proud to be your daddy. You always were daddy’s little shadow, but the spitting image of me. Watching you grow up has been one of the most amazing parts in my life. I am so glad I got to be your mother; I have really loved being a mother. I have loved raising my children, watching you all grow up to the men and women of God that you becoming today. Being a mother has been wonderful but I have to say that I have really loved being a wife.

Your daddy is a wonderful man of God. I know you know our story, I’ve told you over a hundred times and I know you know that we never kissed until our wedding day. You know something else though every time your daddy kisses me even to this day it still feels likes it’s our first kiss. He is so amazing and he loves me unconditionally, we have been in the ministry for our entire marriage. I love to sit and hear him preach, your daddy can really preach baby girl. I love to watch him lay hands on the sick and pray with people to receive Christ. He wrote his fifth book last year, I pretty sure I’ve read it over 100 times.

God has been so good to me He has blessed my life in so many ways. He blessed me with a family and he has blessed my entire ministry. I have preached at crusades and seen millions come to the Lord. I have laid hands on the sick and seen them recover. I have seen the blind see, the deaf hear and the lame walk. I have seen limbs grow where there were none before. I have seen God do so many amazing miracles. I have preached to youth and seen them determine to live for God. I have seen thousands of youth get on their knees and dedicate their lives to the Lord. I have watch 5 years olds get filled with the Holy Ghost and I have had the opportunity to pray with 3 years olds to ask Jesus to come live in their heart. Your daddy and I have started homes for troubled teens. Homes that are networked all over the United States and in just a few short months they will even be overseas. I have written three books now, and I plan on writing more.

My life has been so amazing God has fulfilled every single dream that he has ever placed on the inside of me and even more than I could ever dream of. Now as I look at you, my precious daughter, as you are about to get married and step into the next part of you life, I am so thankful for the woman of God that you have become. I know that you will have a great impact on the kingdom of God and you will touch so many lives. It is so amazing to me that I got to be your mother and that I got to be a part of your life and help mold you into the woman that you are today. I cannot wait to see all that God will do through you and see all the lives that you will change. God has been so good to me; I have done so many things and touch so many lives.
But sadly none of this is true. Not one bit of it ever happened. I never wrote a book or laid my hands on the sick. I never got to see a limb grow out of nothing. I was never able to start homes for trouble teens. I never had a first kiss, I didn’t get married. My daddy never got to walk his daughter down the isle and I’ll never see mine walk an aisle either. No guy ever told me he loved me and no one ever called me mommy. I never got to be a wife, or a mother. Why? Why didn’t I get to fulfill all the dreams in my heart or have a first kiss? Why didn’t a guy ever tell me that he loved me or why didn’t I ever get to hear my baby call me mommy? Why because when I was just 17 years old I committed suicide.

Love,
Your mother
(Well I should have been your mother)